Hey there. Remember me?? Yeah, I know it's been a long time! I don't know what the hell has happened to me. Arghhh!!! Ok, that's a lie. Yes, I do. It happens every time I do this weight loss thing. I do great, show some real success and then BAM, off track I go... and I have the hardest time bringing myself back around and getting back on. Why does it have to be so hard? It sounds simple, really. Fall off the wagon? Dust yourself off, and hop right back on. Easy, right? Ha! In theory, perhaps. In reality, doesn't work that way. Well, not in MY reality anyway.

I glanced back through a few of my old entries, you can definitely see where I started to waiver... but then it went from waivering, to plain ole giving up. The last loss I recorded was on January 27th. It was a good one, too, so why it wasn't enough to keep me going is beyond me. Maybe because before I had really given up, I wasn't showing a loss for a little while. No, because I had already been really shakey and not doing everything I was supposed to be doing.

I'm being really negative and hard on myself, it's probably what I need. A kick in the ass. Even if I have to do it myself! But, I do want to say one thing... There is a positive in all of this. Every other time that I've gotten off track, any diet I've done, when I finally went back on plan, I would have gained back 20lbs or more... Well, this time I've gained about 5-6lbs. Since February. I don't think that's terrible, because I really have eaten anything I've wanted since I gave up. I'm happy that I don't have a huge amount to "payback". Hell, I was finally making some real progress!!

Anyway, that's the story... Today's a new day. A new start. I decided yesterday, that today was the day, and I'm sticking with that. I woke up this morning and made my coffee, I measured my creamer, and I'm just having one cup today. I need to find my WW calculator, who knows where that's ended up after all this time. My scale is on my nerves... it's never worked well in the bathroom, I think the floor is too uneven in there for it to be accurate, so I'll go by the weight I get on the Wii Fit. When I'm done with this post, I'm pulling that baby out and whatever weight it gives me, will be my new starting weight and I'll go from there.

Wish me luck! I know this week is going to be the biggest struggle, I'm going to be hungry and I'm going to be grumpy, but I also know that it'll be worth it... and I CAN do it!